“it’s okay, sweetie.”
“i know what you’re going through, and it’s okay.”
“Dear diary, today I did the thing I was most afraid of. I lost control. I killed someone. I used to think the worst feeling in the world was losing someone you love, but I was wrong. The worst feeling is the moment that you realize…You’ve lost yourself.”
18. Two brothers: one of them wants to take you apart. Two brothers: one of them wants to put you back together. It’s time to choose sides now. The stitches or the devouring mouth? You want an alibi? You don’t get an alibi, you get two brothers. Here are two Jeffs. Pick one. This is how you make the meaning, you take two things and try to define the space between them. Jeff or Jeff? Who do you want to be? You just wanted to play in your own backyard, but you don’t where your own yard is, exactly. You just wanted to prove there was one safe place, just one safe place where you could love him. You have not found that place yet. You have not made that place yet. You are here. You are here. You’re still right here. — Richard Siken
#i don’t want to feel like this. #(but you do precoius girl - and it’s my favorite thing about you. how much you feel.) #which brings me to how elena as a vampire will essentially be an exposed nerve won’t she? #like a fucking cauterized wound that feels everything and hurts and stings and throbs with every emotion known to man. #how do you feel all that and not want to kill yourself at least once a day?
I’ve been holding on to the girl that was supposed to die here with her parents.
or the answer to all the fan frustration over her not just unbuckling her damn seatbelt is that she wanted it to end there, full circle, let it go and close her eyes and be at rest, at long last, after everything.
you know. I think there is something to that reading. Elena admitted to being suicidal in this very episode.